Friday, December 28, 2007
A letter to my son...
Something about this week has drawn me to tell you so many things. I could say these things to you now, but I want to get them in print so I can remember every detail. Part of me also knows that you will look at me while I'm talking, smile, and ask..."Can I go play now?"
This has been such an awesome week. I have loved being home with you during your Christmas break. I love how you are my best friend. How we stay in our pj's way too long, stay up way too late, and sleep in hours passed our normal wake up time. Our conversations amaze me sometimes. It's during them when I'm reminded of how 'grown up' you are. I love hearing your theories behind why things happen and I absolutely adore how genuine you are. I have also learned to accept your social shyness as part of your personality, and I love you for it. I love that you still hug and kiss me no matter what, and I'm so nervous for the day when I get "Mommm, stop it!"
I love how your eyebrows raise when you are talking about something you like, or have a good idea. You are so smart and so sweet and sometimes I think my pride for you is going to explode out of me. I love the your little 5 year old lisp that happens when you say certain words. And your laugh...your laugh can make me smile even on my worst days. While I don't see myself in you physically, I see my sensitivity and dance moves in you daily. I love how music makes you move and how we sing songs in the car together (but only when it's me and you!). I love sneaking into your room after you fall asleep and putting my face as close to yours as possible, rubbing our noses together and kissing you goodnight one last time. Some days I can't wait to see the person you are going to be at 10...15...25. Other days I just want to stop time and keep my baby in my arms.
I hate how everything seems to fly by during 'real life'. School and homework and running around and before you know it months have passed by. It's been so nice to slow down this week. I am so proud of you and I am so happy that we've been able to spend our Christmas break together.
I love you,