Saturday, February 21, 2009

I'm movin' on...

So I usually don't like to post lyrics. I think it's kinda cheesy, but these touch me too close to home not to post....

I've dealt with my ghosts and I've faced all my demons
Finally content with a past I regret
I've found you find strength in your moments of weakness
For once I'm at peace with myself
I've been burdened with blame,
trapped in the past for too long
I'm movin' on

I've lived in this place and I know all the faces
Each one is different but they're always the same
They mean me no harm but it's time that I face it
They'll never allow me to change
But I never dreamed home would end up where I don't belong
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
At last I can see life has been patiently waiting for me
And I know there's no guarantees, but I'm not alone
There comes a time in everyone's life
When all you can see are the years passing by
And I have made up my mind that those days are gone

I sold what I could and packed what I couldn't
Stopped to fill up on my way out of town
I've loved like I should but lived like I shouldn't
I had to lose everything to find out
Maybe forgiveness will find me somewhere down this road
I'm movin' on

I'm movin' on
I'm movin' on

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Turning the page...

This song usually gets stuck in my head today, but it applies to me more today than it ever did before...

"Say, here I am, on the road again. there I am, up on the stage.
Here I go, playing star again.
There I go, turn the page..."

In recent silly news...I watched my first scary(ish) movie! For anyone who doesn't know, I do NOT watch horror movies. I'm taking 'baby steps'...and I'll blog about it soon.

Thursday, February 12, 2009

My Siblings...

My brother John and my sister Jackilyn. The three of us could tell some stories! My brother's birthday is coming up in a few days. He will be 29! I have the most vivid memories of us as children. I would pedal my bike as fast as I could to try to keep up with him. I tried playing Nintendo with my two fingers on the A B buttons instead of using my thumb...just like he did. Whatever he did and wherever he went...I wanted to be there too. I idolized him. He has a calm, old soul. He is rational and thinks everything through. We are opposites in that aspect. I cannot recall having one.single.fight with my brother. He is amazing and I am going to make sure he knows that more often.

My sister is 19. When I was 19, I moved out and got pregnant. The head she has on her shoulders is so much more steady than mine was at that age. She is stubborn as HELL and she's determined...we are similar in that aspect. :) She has dealt with more in her past few years than most teenagers should need to, but she's a stronger person for it. Anytime I think the memory of my dad is fading, I look at Jack and see him. In her appearance, her walk, her shoulders, her attitude, and her problem solving skills..(or lack thereof!) ;)

I miss my siblings terribly lately. They both live close, and we are having dinner Sunday. The 19th is quickly approaching us...togetherness is important. The best thing about family is not having to say a word and understanding the other person's life because it was your life too.

I'm starting a new journey in my life...and I want them both to be a huge part of it. I am looking forward to reconnecting. :)

Sunday, February 8, 2009

Photo Tag!

I was tagged by Heather! Here is the fourth pic from the fourth folder on my computer..

It has Heather in it! And her boy Charlie Fekadu. They are looking out at the big mountains. This picture was taken last year on our trip to the Blue Ridge Mtns. Altogether it was Wes, Me, Chase, Heather, Adam, Charlie, Catherine, Dustin, and Owen. We loaded up the cars and drove up for the weekend. It was bbbbbeeeaaauuutiful up there! We stayed in a gorgeous cabin right on the side of a mountain. We grilled and drank and hung out in the hot tub and played games. I remember getting Cat tipsy on my Bacardi limon drinks and I remember making Heather hot tea in the morning b/c she lost her voice. I remember our kids playing together and going fishing! (Ok..we 'paid' to fish), but we brought that shit home and fried it up! It was amazing! It was a fun vacation! I need another one reallll soon. :)