“Confront the dark parts of yourself, and work to banish them with illumination and forgiveness. Your willingness to wrestle with your demons will cause your angels to sing. Use the pain as fuel, as a reminder of your strength.”
-August Wilson
Wednesday, May 6, 2009
Sunday, May 3, 2009
Mental Health Vacay!
I went on a weekend getaway with my bestie Heather. We left on Friday morning and got back tonight (Sunday). We had a ridiculously good time. We got lots of sun. We played for hours in the sand and ocean like we were teenagers or something. We ate some amazing crab legs at dinner and Burger King at midnight. We met new friends. We listened to music and danced and got our noses pierced. We talked about life on the beach at night and listened to the peacefulness of the ocean. We laughed until we cried. I will never forget this trip... :)
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Run 8
Taking two weeks off is stupid. Tonight hurt...bad. Worse than any other run. I picked up where I left off with 2 4-min. runs, but just barely. My nasty cough is not gone yet so the deep breathing just made it worse. My head is pounding and my legs hurt. It's gonna take a lot more than weather to get me off this course again. Hot bath and early bedtime.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
My top 3 reasons...
...why I haven't been running lately.
1. Weather. So last week it did nothing but rain...all week. I think we had one nice day but the pollen was a yellow haze that I didn't feel like running in. Since then the weather's still be crappy. This week isn't going to be much better. For some stupid reason the temps are going to be in the 20s and 30s here at the beginning of this week with still more rain on the way. Grrrr. Hopefully by the middle of this week I'll be able to get back out there.
2. Sickness. I acquired a nasty cold. It only lasted for a few days...thanks to the all the meds I got shot up with yesterday, but the chest/cough part is still not fun. I'm hoping this also wraps itself up this week.
3. The L-Word. I know what you're thinking...lazy? ;) Well..a lil bit, but I was actually gonna say Life. Sometimes life just gets in the way! I worked a lot at my second job this weekend and hung out with some friends. I had a really good time and the people who I was with help my sanity as much as running does. So I've been busy and just really not devoting as much time as I should to my new habit. That will hopefully change this week though. I've had a nice few weeks here at the new place. I've had days in the past month where all the 'boxes' I've created in my life were getting jumbled up and I was losing my balance. I still have some boxes to eliminate, but at least for now I have a calm and steady grasp on all of them. This week at work may get a little stressful. My kids are taking their state tests so send some good thoughts my way.
Next post: run update! :)
1. Weather. So last week it did nothing but rain...all week. I think we had one nice day but the pollen was a yellow haze that I didn't feel like running in. Since then the weather's still be crappy. This week isn't going to be much better. For some stupid reason the temps are going to be in the 20s and 30s here at the beginning of this week with still more rain on the way. Grrrr. Hopefully by the middle of this week I'll be able to get back out there.
2. Sickness. I acquired a nasty cold. It only lasted for a few days...thanks to the all the meds I got shot up with yesterday, but the chest/cough part is still not fun. I'm hoping this also wraps itself up this week.
3. The L-Word. I know what you're thinking...lazy? ;) Well..a lil bit, but I was actually gonna say Life. Sometimes life just gets in the way! I worked a lot at my second job this weekend and hung out with some friends. I had a really good time and the people who I was with help my sanity as much as running does. So I've been busy and just really not devoting as much time as I should to my new habit. That will hopefully change this week though. I've had a nice few weeks here at the new place. I've had days in the past month where all the 'boxes' I've created in my life were getting jumbled up and I was losing my balance. I still have some boxes to eliminate, but at least for now I have a calm and steady grasp on all of them. This week at work may get a little stressful. My kids are taking their state tests so send some good thoughts my way.
Next post: run update! :)
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Run 7
8 min walk
4 min run
4 min walk
4 min run
10 min walk
Ouch. My calves hurt like a mother tonight. I am literally limping. I'm not sure if the running is catching up to me (haha) or I'm not stretching good enough before/after. It feels like someone's stabbing knives in them. Hopefully I can figure out what caused it and prevent this in the future...cause damn, my calves are mooin'. :(
One (or two) more run(s) on this week 2 goal and I'm ready to move on to week 3! I have a new running crew though, and that makes it even better! :)
4 min run
4 min walk
4 min run
10 min walk
Ouch. My calves hurt like a mother tonight. I am literally limping. I'm not sure if the running is catching up to me (haha) or I'm not stretching good enough before/after. It feels like someone's stabbing knives in them. Hopefully I can figure out what caused it and prevent this in the future...cause damn, my calves are mooin'. :(
One (or two) more run(s) on this week 2 goal and I'm ready to move on to week 3! I have a new running crew though, and that makes it even better! :)
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
Run 6
I felt like I was a few inches from the edge today...I had visits and words of encouragement from friends, so that helped. Then tonight the Bells were going to the track with Mike. Enough is enough...get off the couch and out of this house. That thought turned into this...
Week 2 goal = met.
8 min walk
4 min run
4 min walk
4 min run
10 min walk
It hurt like hell but felt amazing at the same time. My sanity is slowly coming back. :) I'm going to continue this routine several more times this week then move on to my week 3 goal. This is part of an 8 week program...and I'm planning on getting one of these once I am halfway there and complete my week 4 goal.
Week 2 goal = met.
8 min walk
4 min run
4 min walk
4 min run
10 min walk
It hurt like hell but felt amazing at the same time. My sanity is slowly coming back. :) I'm going to continue this routine several more times this week then move on to my week 3 goal. This is part of an 8 week program...and I'm planning on getting one of these once I am halfway there and complete my week 4 goal.
Monday, March 23, 2009
Honesty...
It's not always runs and new experiences. It's not always an open future and new opportunities. Some days...it's looking behind me and mourning.
I can't smile everyday. I can't think positively everyday. I don't feel good everyday and I'm not strong everyday. I'm only human.
Right this second...I can't smile. I can't think positively, I don't feel good or strong. Today...I just feel sad. Really...sad.
Tomorrow morning my feet will hit the floor and I can only hope for a better day.
I can't smile everyday. I can't think positively everyday. I don't feel good everyday and I'm not strong everyday. I'm only human.
Right this second...I can't smile. I can't think positively, I don't feel good or strong. Today...I just feel sad. Really...sad.
Tomorrow morning my feet will hit the floor and I can only hope for a better day.
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