Run 8

Taking two weeks off is stupid. Tonight hurt...bad. Worse than any other run. I picked up where I left off with 2 4-min. runs, but just barely. My nasty cough is not gone yet so the deep breathing just made it worse. My head is pounding and my legs hurt. It's gonna take a lot more than weather to get me off this course again. Hot bath and early bedtime.

My top 3 reasons...

...why I haven't been running lately.

1. Weather. So last week it did nothing but rain...all week. I think we had one nice day but the pollen was a yellow haze that I didn't feel like running in. Since then the weather's still be crappy. This week isn't going to be much better. For some stupid reason the temps are going to be in the 20s and 30s here at the beginning of this week with still more rain on the way. Grrrr. Hopefully by the middle of this week I'll be able to get back out there.

2. Sickness. I acquired a nasty cold. It only lasted for a few days...thanks to the all the meds I got shot up with yesterday, but the chest/cough part is still not fun. I'm hoping this also wraps itself up this week.

3. The L-Word. I know what you're thinking...lazy? ;) Well..a lil bit, but I was actually gonna say Life. Sometimes life just gets in the way! I worked a lot at my second job this weekend and hung out with some friends. I had a really good time and the people who I was with help my sanity as much as running does. So I've been busy and just really not devoting as much time as I should to my new habit. That will hopefully change this week though. I've had a nice few weeks here at the new place. I've had days in the past month where all the 'boxes' I've created in my life were getting jumbled up and I was losing my balance. I still have some boxes to eliminate, but at least for now I have a calm and steady grasp on all of them. This week at work may get a little stressful. My kids are taking their state tests so send some good thoughts my way.

Next post: run update! :)

Run 7

8 min walk
4 min run
4 min walk
4 min run
10 min walk


Ouch. My calves hurt like a mother tonight. I am literally limping. I'm not sure if the running is catching up to me (haha) or I'm not stretching good enough before/after. It feels like someone's stabbing knives in them. Hopefully I can figure out what caused it and prevent this in the future...cause damn, my calves are mooin'. :(

One (or two) more run(s) on this week 2 goal and I'm ready to move on to week 3! I have a new running crew though, and that makes it even better! :)

Run 6

I felt like I was a few inches from the edge today...I had visits and words of encouragement from friends, so that helped. Then tonight the Bells were going to the track with Mike. Enough is enough...get off the couch and out of this house. That thought turned into this...

Week 2 goal = met.

8 min walk
4 min run
4 min walk
4 min run
10 min walk

It hurt like hell but felt amazing at the same time. My sanity is slowly coming back. :) I'm going to continue this routine several more times this week then move on to my week 3 goal. This is part of an 8 week program...and I'm planning on getting one of these once I am halfway there and complete my week 4 goal.

Honesty...

It's not always runs and new experiences. It's not always an open future and new opportunities. Some days...it's looking behind me and mourning.

I can't smile everyday. I can't think positively everyday. I don't feel good everyday and I'm not strong everyday. I'm only human.

Right this second...I can't smile. I can't think positively, I don't feel good or strong. Today...I just feel sad. Really...sad.

Tomorrow morning my feet will hit the floor and I can only hope for a better day.

Run 5

8 min walk
3 min run
3 min walk
3 min run
3 min walk
2 min run
8 min walk/pray I don't pass out....

How did that become so hard?? Maybe it was the heat. I was also running a total of 6 minutes before, and today went up to 8. I guess this isn't supposed to be easy. I always feel so great after though..(well..about 20 min. after). I learned a bit more about stretching today and I really need to make that part of my routine. Oh...and I found one of my 'power songs'. Killing in the name by Rage. It makes me angry and push through whatever hurts at the moment.

Today's plans are to go get a small grill and cook out with a few friends on the back deck. The new place is clean (pics soon) and I'm ready to just chill and eat and live here. I'll try to take some pics. This will be the first time I've ever operated or cooked off a grill on my own...so it could get interesting!

C'mon Tooth Fairy!

Chase told me this evening that all the kids in his class have been losing teeth lately. He looked so bummed, and asked me when he was going to get to lose a tooth. I checked around, but they all feel snug. I tried to encourage him that they would come out soon enough. It didn't seem to cheer him up much. Later he asked me for a piece of paper and a pencil...then asked me how to spell "haven't". I found this under his pillow tonight while he was in the tub...